As I lay on my bed, trying to get in sync with my breath, my tired mind flows to somewhere far – a place that I’ve been avoiding to go to – a place where I kept all my troubles and misery. But this mind of mind, no matter how I tell it to rest and think of nothing, it ignores me like I do not own her. By the time she reaches that forbidden place, that’s when the whole problem starts.

I begin to turn bitter. And sad. Worse, I couldn’t get that much sleep I needed right now! All thanks to you, silly mind. But because of you, I talked to God again today. I haven’t been talking to Him this personal for quite some time now..

I think it helps a lot after talking to Him. Would help even more if He actually talks back – but I don’t think I’d be ready to hear a voice in my bedroom right now, especially now that I’m all alone!

Maybe meditation would help. I should try the Om namah shivaya. It’ll probably help me to relax my mind. And if that doesn’t help much.. there’s always those rugs that needed cleanings. Bunny spilled something on one of them rugs last week which left a great obvious red spot (the rugs were white in color). Whatever makes me sleep at night, I’d do it!